Read this out would you?

I must be frank, contrary to how people claimed to have started their blog by just randomly scribbled down some stories, I actually started my blog with a vision.

It was a very close friend of mine who asked me to write something about myself, making this a platform for others to get to know me better.

And so I tried so hard to jot down events of my life, eager to let my friends catch up with what's happening to me.

It was exhausting.

In retrospect, towards the end of my blogging, most of the posts can only be labelled as melancholic ones. Without even me noticing this blog has became a place where I lamented once in a blue moon, and more of it, a place where the gossipers would drop by once a while.

There's a saying that I can't help but to agree with : "People do change". Personally I think I have changed so much ever since I left INTEC. Thus, I thought I needed to be more matured even in my articles. Having said that it does more or less set me back a bit whenever I open the blogdrive and decided to blog.

The more I read back the previous posts, the more I feel bad as a reader. The blog has not been shaped into what I'd imagined, over the years. Yet I still love this place.

And yeah I will seal this blog with my kiss, as it will always remain as a place where I would visit over and over again to read at the stories which happened at different stages of my life.

And as for now, what about a new blog but the same writer?:)

Choosing to use wordpress means no more ads and chatter box, but a fresh new avenue for me to write, with a pinch of professionalism. Cool.

Ok, at least I think it's cool.

It would be http://johnsoneo.wordpress.com

or you could just click here.

See you there folks!^^

p/s : My apology. I didn't know the previous post about my status will create such trouble to the person whom I still very much care about now. Bah... Post is removed?

I am happy

Results was out and I am more than happy for it, even though I have no idea what's wrong with my C3 paper.. Lol

Don't get me mistaken folks, I think there's nothing much to brag about my results la especially after Miss Lesbian phoned and told me she has got perfect scores for all papers except her C3.

I am happy for several reasons which I will let you know later.

Mine? Darn C3, chemistry unit 4 and biology unit 4. Lol, but getting full marks for other papers means - Edexcel Freaking SCALED all my marks ok... obviously I had several errors in quite some papers all right? But I have no idea how they marked the papers...

Anyway who cares? Good for us. Haha

I am happy because...

• Prayer does work especially at times when I was having unnecessary emotional breakdowns. Prayer makes me realise that we should not pick up little things under any circumstances and get too "hang over" over the issue. That is, in short, taking care of the bigger picture:)
• Friends. Druken. Home. Midnight. Alone. Blessed. Cupid. MSN. Food. Haha... All these words lead to a story, a story to be chatted over a cup of coffee. Not starbucks. Haha
• I am swtiching from blogdrive to wordpress. Yeah! (p/s: soon)

Good Day

Decided to write something happy as the results are going to be released two more days from now! Nervous!

Oh, I got an aluminium cooler pad (really cool and cold one), a high quality web cam and a high class mouse (can scroll 4 directions eh) -- For Free!

First Light. Adrenaline.

Tough

I am so sure that it is my first love.

I need to make a decision right now.

Apparently the stir that swirled me in for more than 2 years isn't that strong, even though I try so hard to make it spin.

Though week, a crucial one.

What Meow Meow has to say at the moment

No, not you Meng Yeow, haha...

Meow Meow is what Riz calls me. (Who's Riz? No not Ridzuan Mohsin, explain later yea)

At this moment I just can't finish organising millions of photos that I took ever since A-levels had just finished. But here are a few things that I must take off from me :

1. Who's Riz - He told me more secrets of P** L*H than any of the reporters. Cool, flirthy rich, chatty, kind, and of all, weird. He calls himself Si Mangkuk though. Funny right?

2. I'd just been to Labuan+KK (Kota Kinabalu you folks who didn't read geography,lol,not you lollipop,not you) with Pat, Anderson, Tim, Grace, Rachel, Cherll, Yvonne, Jennifer, Miss Lesbian and a bunch of KMB genius-es who scored more A1s in SPM than anybody else. FUN FUN FUN. Pulau tiga (the island where survivor was shot) is fantastic and I literally climbed mount KK with a pair of jeans. lol. Photos up tomorrow.

3. She's back. She has yet to phone me.

4. Praying so hard for my A-Levels result. Not greedy anymore.

5. Prasad called. Yeah!

p/s : So many things happened within a week time.

p/s : So many birthdays went pass meaning more ppl getting older

p/s : Riz oh riz...

p/s : Yon Hui, can't read your comment in chinese.

p/s : Sorry Bill, can't visit your house in Kuching. Have fun cox I'm Thailand-ing!!!

pp/ss : PHOTOS UP SOON. yeah yeah

I Miss You

I know you are reading this. I miss you.

I miss you, ardently.

I miss you I miss you I miss you.

Do you miss me?

Anyway, I hate myself for confusing blue and green colour. Duh.

Persevere.

I miss you

And Im starting to nag like an old hag, still...

I miss you

Friends, or beyond than that

You are my friend.

More often than not, I start a friendship without knowing that person well enough at the first place. Well, it might sound confusing, but funny enough, I think most of my friends did the same thing as well.

It doesn't mean I literally "choose" friends based on first impression. I do have many friends whom gave me a nasty impression on fist sight, but later on amazed me with their inner beauty and amiable characteristics.

Humans are born to own the ability of making friends. Even the stupiest champ on earth makes friends. The question to ponder here will be the ability of one to distinguish between friends, and something beyond that. I don't mean buddies or close friends, yet I'm referring to stir of relationship.

Yes. When a guy tags along well with a girl, rumour spread, well maybe not in other countries but in M'sia at particular, yes, sadly. The reason behind it will most probably be that most of us do not have the ability to distinguish our feelings for mere friendship and relationship, thus this further leads to a naive thinking that " Hey, there's no such thing as best opposite sex friend on earth, there must be a crush between both."

I was left voxed most of the time when I heard this.

Friends to me are people whom you can laugh or *erhem* bitch at times with. They are the ones who will lift up a finger and help whenever you are in trouble. And most vital of all, to cheer you up when you are down while willing to share your joy when you're happy.

Stemming from that, true+best female friends do exist, maybe not for everyone, but at least it does in my world. When they are the ones who are more empathy and caring then some of the guys, for sure getting along better with that particular girl will be more possible.

At the end of the day, no matter it's the girl who gave the box of chocolates; the one who left for her studies; the one who wrote a letter to me; the one who is always generous enough to me; the one who cooked for me; or the one who cried for me, they are after all, clearly distinguished within me, for their status.

Friends whom I revered? Or beyond that? I know them all, and I just know what's right to be done and what's not.

At this point of reading, if you still don't get it, I'm afriad you are one of the population where you just can't take a relationship beyond friendship, in other words, you don't really have a best friend whom is of the opposite sex

Back to the UPDATES OF LIFE

Recently the IELTS results was just released. Due to the bloody writing, I have a band 8. I gave up trying anymore because seriously, there are just so many preperations to be made before an English test. And it's not cheap after all.

It has been hot and scorching these few days, if I were to be called a male mermaid, then I would be IKAN MASIN for the past few days already. Just continue to pray that my buddies will sing more so that it will rain more... Haha

You know the reason for global warming? Because I'm just too hot! Haha... Funny yea Kenny.

Exams coming up in a week! That's the final battle arena (pre-U) so I'm gonna gear up and put all my endeavours into it. By the Grace of God I shall survive (why did I sound so "marking scheme").

Updates, finally. Cheers!

The Belated A1

Can't help, must brag about it. Don't STOP me all right? I'm gonna continue to brag bout THIS untill i make sure my GRAND GRAND children know about this.

DEFINITELY NOT EASY ok... Haha..

*update* THANKS BABE, THANKS FOR THE NOTES. LOVE LOVE LOVE!!!=)

Ah Yin photostated her senior's notes and all I did was to memorise the whole pile of notes. Enough for an UNEXPECTED A1 though:)

Those sarcastic comments coming from CSheng, Mao, Rabbit, KH, S* H**, Y*** Y***, C******, H*** G***, S*** L*** etc (p/s: INTECians don't like their name get exposed for something ugly..hehe) after I took the paper last year did ring at my ears for quite some time. They are evil aren't they >.<

Wrong wrong wrong... You are wrong!!!! (wahahaha, totally syiok sendiri)

Sin Chew Jit Poh

My news went into Sin Chew, "thanks" to Pn Ham. My photo was axed anyway.

I'm just so overwhelmed! This sense of joy which surged up my spine is even more intense than knowing that questions which came out during the recent trials were all revised before.

I'm so CHINA now. Go! Beijing olympics. Hope, Love and Unity!

P/s : Mum is the one who insisted in registering the subject for me last year, even though I'd repeatedly expressed my dis-interest in sitting for it. Anyway thanks Mum, Great one!

Very First Touch Of My Heart

Right now I'm in KLIA, just saw her off to United States.

For the first time, I put in so much effort to salvage what's stirring within me. 6 months aren't that short, we didn't give each other any promises. All that I had is an answer, an answer to keep me going.

That's the first touch, a touch of romance.

Got back my results, Thank God and Praise Him for the straight A's again even though I really thought I screwed up my maths.

That's the first touch, a touch of thankfulness, after such long time.

Got back to my hostel and started the brand new chapter of my college life. Somehow tears were rolling in my eyes at the moment in which my parents were about to leave.

That's the first touch, a touch of warmth, so padded.

Weird.

Fresh experiences that I'd never experienced happened one by one starting from the blessed year.

p/s : Thanks to the 12+ ppl who left me those constructive comments in the previous post. Pardon me if I didn't reply any of them, because I simply don't know how to do so at the moment.